“At least you can get pregnant.” “Everything happens for a reason.” “God has a plan for you.” I have heard these phrases more times than I can count. The words are uttered by well-intentioned people, but pierce my scarred heart as sharp as a knife’s blade every time they are Continue Reading …
Grief is such an isolating and traumatizing experience, in and of itself, never mind when the source of grief is the loss of a baby. It has been a bit over nineteen years for me and I can recall every single detail from that horrific night in the emergency room. Continue Reading …
It has been almost nine months since you were born. October 27, 2016. I wish we could take one of those “nine month” pictures. The kind where I hold you roughly where you hung out in my belly, and then we put it next to the very last picture of Continue Reading …
Dear Loss Moms With Living Children, I still have days where I can be very bitter. Today is one of those days. As loss parents, we have the common denominator that is losing a child. Some have lost more than one. Losing a child alone is awful; gut wrenching even. Continue Reading …
“Everything happens for a reason”. Bet you’ve heard that one too many times? In fact, when you’ve lost your child, one time is too many. There can surely be no decent reason that any parent should be without their child. Nor can you expect to see or find the dreaded Continue Reading …
It begins, every June… as I go on Social Media, the “On This Day” posts show up. I have a vicious love/hate relationship with TimeHop/On this Day. Many people have suggested I delete it, and remove the triggers and the pain that come with them. It’s logical: why put myself Continue Reading …
I am a HUGE believer in signs. I have also always believed that “everything happens for a reason”… although in Gemma’s case, I still can’t wrap my head around the fact that there was a reason for her passing. True, her passing gave her relief from living in the NICU Continue Reading …
Recently I went to buy some new plants at the garden centre for our angel – Lily . We’ve brought a ones before many times but these were special ones to go in some new plant pots in the back garden and in my mind I thought ” ooo definitely Continue Reading …
One of the first (and best) pieces of advice I heard after losing my son, Jonah, at 30 weeks, was from another bereaved mother in a Facebook group: she told me to be gentle with myself. Now, I see and hear this advice everywhere, and I even say it to Continue Reading …
My Precious Angel, I have always prided myself on my ability to remember little details, even when in traumatic situations. On Sunday June 12th, 2016, I remember waking up in the hospital that morning so angry, because I wasn’t brought breakfast like I was supposed to have, and I didn’t Continue Reading …
This will not be an easy post for me to write because it will require me to reveal some of my darkest pain. I wanted to write it to help others who are experiencing the same issues. What do you think of when you think of the word trigger? Most Continue Reading …
