Letter to the New Loss Mother

I feel like I have written variations of these words hundreds of times over the last few years; too many times I have typed them to online friends who have just lost their child in pregnancy or stillbirth. I strive to find the right words to comfort the newly bereaved, Continue Reading …

Giving Thanks with a Full Heart

It’s finally here, my first Thanksgiving without my daughter. I’ve been dreading this day for months. Eight months, to be exact. Like most other holidays and events, I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about what it will be like without my daughter. Utterly heartbreaking are the words that always Continue Reading …

Dear Cyrus

Dear Cyrus, Today marks 2 years since I’ve seen your sweet face. Two years that we’ve been separated by time and space. To say that I miss you is understatement. You are missing from me. And yet somehow you are a part of me. You are in every breath I Continue Reading …

The Old Apartment

A few nights ago, as my husband and I drove past our old neighborhood on the way home from a family event, he asked if I wanted to go by our old apartment. I was reluctant, but I agreed. Feeling so unsure about a place we used to call home Continue Reading …

First Birthday

by Lisa Hand There’s a special day that should have been our son’s birthday. It was his due date. But he passed at 28 weeks in utero in April 2014. So technically we already survived his first birthday in heaven but this date is still hitting me hard. I have another little Continue Reading …

Maintaining a relationship after loss

Relationships are hard after loss. To add to the struggle of losing a child, you witness your partner go through it first hand. You can’t help it, stop it, save them from it, spare them – nada. It’s a heart wrenching experience tacked onto the tail end of the worst Continue Reading …

She is not

She is not a memory. She is not a sad story. She is not “just a baby”. She is a real person. She is my daughter. When you speak about her, remember I value her above all other humans. I would have done anything to keep her with me. And Continue Reading …

On Terror and Grief

There was a new terror attack in Paris last night. A lot of my friends, both French and foreigners, were worried and asked if I was fine. But I wasn’t even in the city, actually. I had decided on a whim to spend the weekend in the countryside. Like most, I Continue Reading …

The Decision to Stop Trying

by Louise Botterill Dear Brave Mama, For some of us, chasing the (seemingly never ending) dream of having another baby after loss can be so encompassing that it interferes with the life we already have. We become so caught up in chasing the unattainable that what’s right in front of Continue Reading …

La Festa di San Martino

The celebration of Saint Martin’s day is a special Venetian tradition. On the 11th of November the children in Venice, Italy stroll from one square to another, passing through the streets, the calle – as the are called in Venice-, armed with dishes and lids, and ask for some coins Continue Reading …

I’m Still Here

I’m not sure when it happened. I spent so many years living with the terrible ache and grief accompanied by the thought, “How can I still be here, alive and breathing, while my baby is dead?” It was a question that rippled through my life causing waves of grief and Continue Reading …

Letting Go of Control

My life, though wonderful in more ways than one, does not look exactly how I pictured it when I was growing up. Life is not, however much we wish for it to be, a fairy tale. We don’t live lives like Cinderella, where all of our troubles go away when Continue Reading …

Monthiversaries: It’s That Date Again…

By Trish-Ann Taylor Our sweet daughter, Joislen Grace, is one month into her rest. One “monthiversary” of the many more to come. One month down. ____ more to go, till I get to hold you again. I have a list full of wishes. My totally viable princess could’ve lived on Continue Reading …

Oxygen Masks

Think back to the last time you flew in a plane; do you remember the flight attendant giving the safety instructions? One instruction is that if the oxygen masks drop, you need to put your own mask on before helping anyone else. If you don’t save your own life, you Continue Reading …