*Editors Note: This post is about the author’s struggle with faith, religion and personal beliefs after loss. If faith is a triggering subject for you, please proceed with caution, or simply skip this post. *** Let me start of by saying that this is not intended to bash or discourage anyone that Continue Reading …
When you lose a baby no one ever tells you how completely and utterly alone you feel once you come out of hospital. I think this feeling for me was more profound than any other when my little boy died when I was 20 weeks pregnant. I had spent those Continue Reading …
Grief really is like the wave that so many people relate it to. Sometimes you feel as if you’re drowning, sometimes you are just barely treading water enough to breathe, sometimes the tidal wave smashes over your head and you don’t know which way is up or if you’ll survive. Continue Reading …
Dear Expectant/Newborn Mother, Let me just say that I am so happy for you. I am so happy that your baby is healthy and that you are okay. It is a relief that you do not know the earth shattering pain that I live with every day. I am elated that Continue Reading …
When I found out I was pregnant with Kendall, I was no longer in a relationship with his Dad. There were real reasons why the relationship was over, ironically, one of them was he already had children and was not the kind of Dad to them I wanted for my Continue Reading …
At 11.50PM, September 6th 2017, I gave birth to death. My first son was stillborn at 36 week gestation and – as every mother would say – he was by far the most beautiful, perfectly adorable baby I have ever laid eyes on. He had my nose and cute little Continue Reading …
It’s now been 21 years since I said goodbye to my first child, the amethyst color of my heart. The day of her miscarriage, I was so filled with shock that one moment I could be pregnant and the next, not. That just wasn’t supposed to happen. Now, a lifetime Continue Reading …
There’s not much that you can say you “expect” after the loss of a child. Every day is unexpected; will the grief blindly sneak up on me today? Will the guilt hit me? Will I see a mom and baby and instantly be plagued with the thoughts of “what if”? Continue Reading …
