Christmas, in a Still household

I had wonderful Christmas mornings, growing up.  My face would light up, as I would peer around the corner and see that stockings had been filled.  My sister, who had been awake since 3 a.m. would wake me up – none too gently, at 7 a.m.  Wrapping paper would fly, Continue Reading …

What About Him?

People ask him how I am all the time. They send me wishes and love, and grieve with me.  But what about him? He goes to work and he smiles. He impresses the boss each day. But when he sits alone with his headphones on, they think he’s just working Continue Reading …

Our Dog, a Source of Love

I’m a mother. My beautiful baby girl Camila died six months ago and I struggle daily to live without her in my arms. I’m lucky to have my dear husband, who loves me no matter what, and I’m extremely grateful for that. Today I want to write to thank our Continue Reading …

Remembering The Ones That Aren’t There

Last Christmas was the first without our sweet boy, and honestly, it was as crappy as I had expected it to be. Between the traditions we had been planning to fulfill with him, the gifts we had planned to buy, and all the Christmas joy we wanted to share with Continue Reading …

Being a Childless Mother

I am sure for many, the idea of being a Childless Mother, is an oxymoron. For, if one does not have a child, she is not a Mother. Prior to 1998, I too, would have thought this way. Yet my life, and that of far too many others, reflect that Continue Reading …

Beating Breakdowns

OK, I know what you’re thinking… There is nothing worse than a Breakdown. It’s been days, months, and maybe years since you’ve had one. It could be just hours or minutes since your last. Congratulations on getting through it! Now what did you learn? To me, Breakdowns are the worst Continue Reading …

How To Cope With Friends Who Take Their Kids For Granted

Do you ever feel frustrated or resentful when you hear people complaining about their kids? Like when your friend vents about how little sleep she’s getting with her newborn waking through the night, or when your sister-in-law gripes to you about her pregnancy symptoms… or your co-worker complains about how Continue Reading …