I am a Still Mother. That much is infinitely true. But, this is only one aspect of my existence and my story. While it is a part of who I am, and will forever be, it is not all of me. It’s taken me some time to build up the Continue Reading …
(Editor’s Note: This article does touch on hopes and fears of having another child. If this is a sensitive topic for you, please read with caution) I lost my daughter two years ago now, as unimaginable as that seems to me most days. But, the days have passed, the months Continue Reading …
I lost my daughter. That is my truth. Once I got over the initial shock of her loss, and accepted that truth, I knew I had two real choices on how to move forward. I could face the future with bitterness, resentment and consider her loss the only defining factor Continue Reading …
There’s not much that you can say you “expect” after the loss of a child. Every day is unexpected; will the grief blindly sneak up on me today? Will the guilt hit me? Will I see a mom and baby and instantly be plagued with the thoughts of “what if”? Continue Reading …
While I know that nothing will ever replace the loss of my daughter and I will never stop wondering, “what if”, as I have worked through my grief I have learned there is a silver lining in her life and in her loss. Through her, I have felt support and Continue Reading …
I’ve always thought of myself as a genuine and empathetic person. In fact, I still find that to be true. However, after the loss of my daughter something shifted in me and while I don’t like it, I haven’t got to the point where I can control or change it, Continue Reading …
There are many things I struggled with after losing my daughter and in all honesty, every day still brings its own struggles. While I feel as though I’m through the storm, the battle is not over. The battle will never truly be over and I’m okay with that because moving Continue Reading …
2016 was the year of loss for me. After losing my daughter, I also faced the loss of my relationship with her father. All of that on its own was extremely tough to work through, but then I faced something incredibly confusing and daunting– dating. Except, this wasn’t only dating- Continue Reading …
You hear many things about grief – “it comes and goes in waves”, “there’s no wrong way to grieve” and “everyone grieves differently”. In my experience, these are all true, but the last one was incredibly real after the loss of my daughter. What do you do when you’re not Continue Reading …
There are many struggles that arise from being a still mother, this is no secret. But besides the guilt, the longing, the emptiness and the feelings of “what if”, I frequently face the struggle of feeling like a “less-than” mom. What exactly is a “less-than” mom, most would ask. Well, Continue Reading …
Still Mother. Two words I never thought would ever be used to describe me. One day, you’re living your life, preparing for arguably the most exciting and life-changing milestone and then, death steps in. I can’t speak for others who have suffered a loss similar to mine, because the fact Continue Reading …
