I’ve always really liked Halloween. Before I became a mother it was a fun day filled with candy, ridiculous costumes, and scary movies. I’m not sure how I feel about it this year. Then again, I’m not sure how I feel about most things. This year is drastically different than Continue Reading …
It seems awkward to make myself think about pregnancy and infant loss awareness month only because it is something I have been unconsciously doing daily for six years now. Every morning my eyes open and I don’t see my son – I am aware. In the past years I have avoided Continue Reading …
When you lose your beloved child, finding purpose is one of the most difficult tasks you must face, in my opinion. When you lose your child, no matter when or how, your life suddenly becomes meaningless and purposeless. For a certain period of time your whole life comes to a halt. Continue Reading …
Most of our closest friends have three kids. Three! Three seems to be the new 2.5 kids in our culture. We love those big families of five even if sometimes we look at each on our way to the childless quiet of our home and say to one another, “Man, three kids! Continue Reading …
There is comfort to be found in things, when memories are so volatile, fleeting, unattainable. My daughter lived for eleven months, yet it sometimes feels like a dream, and left me wondering whether it really happened. I can’t remember her unique smell, the facial expressions that were hers only, the Continue Reading …
by Angie Every day is a struggle for loss mothers. And it seems the majority of these women are comforted by the loving support of their partners. Others are in the unique position of losing their child and having no partner to share their experience with. I am one of those women. Continue Reading …
This post is part of a multi-part series regarding moving forward with life after loss and the struggles of the reintroduction to “normal life.” The focus of these posts is being prepared and coping with the things that will come as we resume our day to day lives and return Continue Reading …
A few weeks ago I finally held the print copy of my book, Invisible Mothers, in my hands, this beautiful book that I have worked so hard to write and create over the last 2 years. I was excited, nervous, giddy with anticipation, and painfully sad. I am so deeply Continue Reading …
By Lori Davis Sometimes my thoughts are neatly wrapped together and easy to articulate. And then there are days like today, when they feel a little jumbled and messy. That’s how grief works. It’s complex and confusing. There is no rhyme or reason to the ups and downs. It just is. I Continue Reading …
In those first dark days you will find yourself asking, “What is the point”? Everything that once seemed so important will lose all meaning. What is the point of getting out of bed, showering, eating? Much less, working, making a home, or planning for the future! Your world has been Continue Reading …
by Sarah Townend “Are you a mummy?” An elderly patient at work the other day. Somehow the question cut deeper than “do you have children?” Yes, I am a mummy, I thought, but how can I tell you? How can I possibly say to you that yes, I am a mummy Continue Reading …
When our twin boys, Damon and Drazan, died last May 21, my husband and I were sent reeling. And it was in this condition that we were expected to make some pretty important decisions: to bury or cremate…? Do we baptize them, or…? What kind of service should we…? It all felt Continue Reading …
by Carol Jacobson Have you heard the phrase “deafening silence”? I’m not sure that I used to understand what it meant. It is autumn now, and evenings are finally cooler. We turn off the air conditioning and open the windows in the bedroom. I hear the quiet hum of the Continue Reading …
It’s estimated that as many as one in four pregnancies will end in miscarriage or stillbirth. Somehow with all the medical advances that have been made in the last fifty years, we are still suffering this heartbreaking level of loss. And even worse, the stigma surrounding these deaths is still Continue Reading …
