It has been seven years since I became a mother, and I have done every kind of Mothers day. From the devastated, to denying the day exists, to the keeping it together for the other moms around me, back to denial, and everything in between. This year is different – I Continue Reading …
The daffodils bloom a few weeks before your birthday. When I see them it reminds me the end of March is coming. I give myself your day to let whatever may be – be. Sometimes I feel brave enough to weather my deeper feelings and think of who you Continue Reading …
Being at work can be a challenge as a Still Mother. I manage a small sports therapy clinic, and overseeing the ins and outs keeps me pretty occupied. Most days I can just worry about regular office stuff, but occasionally some personal trials come up within my workday, one of which still throw Continue Reading …
My husband recently brought to my attention that as a loss father, years in, there are things in his day to day life that still catch him off guard. I asked him if he would care to elaborate, and the first words out of his mouth were this: Teenage Mutant Ninja Continue Reading …
Christmas was never a good holiday for me growing up. It was always more hassle than what it was worth (coming from a divorced family it was stressful at the best of times). I’ll admit when I got pregnant I was excited for the coming winter holidays. I’d have my Continue Reading …
Relationships are hard after loss. To add to the struggle of losing a child, you witness your partner go through it first hand. You can’t help it, stop it, save them from it, spare them – nada. It’s a heart wrenching experience tacked onto the tail end of the worst Continue Reading …
It seems awkward to make myself think about pregnancy and infant loss awareness month only because it is something I have been unconsciously doing daily for six years now. Every morning my eyes open and I don’t see my son – I am aware. In the past years I have avoided Continue Reading …
