I Am Guilty

I'm Guilty

I am guilty. I’m guilty of judging every woman who’s pregnant with ease. I’m guilty of holding my niece and wishing she was mine. I’m guilty of avoiding baby showers and birthday parties. I’m guilty of glaring at swollen bellies with hatred. I’m guilty of staring at babies around her age – Continue Reading …

Living While Grieving – The Real Meaning of Moving On

Living While Grieving - The Real Meaning of Moving On

If my daughter had lived, she would be 12 years old.  She would be dealing with the challenges of middle school girls, heading fast into her teenage years, figuring out who she is as a young person, and, if she was anything like her mother, determined to do everything her Continue Reading …

14 Things it is Okay to Do (Or Not Do) As a Still Mother

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When you are a Still Mother, there are many situations and circumstances that are VERY difficult. If you ever feel the need, it is okay to:     Unfollow or Hide a fellow baby loss mom when she becomes pregnant or gives birth to her healthy baby. Do various things Continue Reading …

The Conflicting Feelings of Mother’s Day

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Ah, Mother’s Day.  Hands down my least favorite holiday of the year. Mother’s Day has been an emotional challenge for me for years. Twelve years to be exact; every year since my first daughter was born still. I’ve handled it, and my grief around it, in various ways over the years. Continue Reading …

Honoring Your Motherhood as a Still Mother

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Well, it’s here: Mothers Day. Honestly, I believe it’s one of the hardest days for a loss mama to bear. It just hurts. Deeply. Everything about it is wrong. On one hand, we are mothers and deserve to have our motherhood honored just as much – actually, I’m just going Continue Reading …